
Written September 24th
It will be a month today since my departure from home. A month of foreign smells, new faces, countless names to be memorized and a whole new way of life to be lived. It was a month of intense strain and worry but not without the delight of making the small, daily achievements that count for so much when trying to carve a new niche for oneself. I can now say that I know the difference between 90 peswas and 9,000 Cedis (there isn’t one) and I can hand wash and hang dry my clothes like no ones business. I’ve discovered that a single bucket of water is sufficient for a shower (hair washing included) and that when one of my students says “I rinate,” they need to make a visit to the toilet. Routine is quickly setting in and daily life seems to be much more livable now. Speaking of daily life, here’s a brief rundown of a normal weekday for me:
7:30am: wake up
8:00am: actually wake up
8:15am: drag myself to breakfast and dine on bread with peanut butter, pineapple, tea/coffee and sometimes porridge
8:30am: discuss the coming day’s lesson plan with Larissa (the other volunteer)
9:00am: appear in the classroom, round up the kids, read a story and then hold an arts and crafts session
10:00am: have a cup of tea with Larissa while the kids go on break, discuss the plan for the remainder of the day
10:30am: bring in the kids and either take the little ones or the big ones (depending on the whim of the teacher that day) and teach accordingly
12:00pm: lunch for about an hour and discuss with Larissa how exhausted we are
From there on out, I might or might not take a really long nap, go for a Fanta at the corner store with Larissa, make an appearance in town, spend an hour or so on the internet, hang out with the girls at the home, eat dinner, read a book, combat mosquitoes, bathe, try to tame my hair, give myself a tarot reading, edit photos and attempt a number of other mundane tasks that are actually really enjoyable after a while. Routine and repetition is very comforting when trying to survive in a foreign environment.
Concerning the school itself, it’s been quite an adventure to say the least. I came here with absolutely NO formal training or teaching experience and guess what? I’m handed a class and told “here’s the class, now teach them what you know.” I don’t think there’s any other term to describe the state of mind I get into every day besides “survival mode”. I suddenly remember countless childhood songs that I haven’t thought of in years, I can decipher the childrens somewhat muddled English based on intuition and deduction, Hmm, they either want to eat, drink or pee... and the thought of panicking slips from my mind entirely. Panicking is DEFINITELY not an option. It's hard sometimes because though half the time I'm thinking, Wow, how did we pull that off so well?, the rest of the time I'm wondering exactly how much of an impact I'm actually making. Am I really influencing these kids? Am I making a difference? How effective is a time-out when the children are normally used to getting beaten? What does the color "red" really mean to them? It's questions like these that make getting through the day difficult.
It's not all hopeless though. I think that for every apparent "failure", there are just as many "ah-ha!" moments, the little achievements that I mentioned before. And they happen every day.
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It’s funny how time has treated me since my flight out of the country. I see “September 24, 2008” and think, Has is really been a month since I left? And yet when I talk to my friends and family at home, they say, Has it really only been a month since you’ve left? It saddens me at times to think that time is passing so much slower for those at home and that my 7 month absence might end up feeling more like a year to some. I know it’s silly but I have this irrational fear that I’m sorely missing out on the lives of my friends and that when I return, things will be so different that none of us will be able to relate or connect with each other on the same level anymore.
Silly, I know.
But then again, how many other people have the opportunity to teach a bunch of awesome kids in AFRICA of all places??
Someone slap me silly now please.